Define That.

Pain.......

Fuck that. Mental or Physical. Ive been in a lot of physical pain yesterday. Definitely was not a Nice feeling.

Ive been thinking recently of the things i have around me. A handful of good friends who i can trust. Parents Who don't understand me. Sisters Who are from another generation and Very few assets. What i was really thinking was which one of these define me?
Is it My Friends? My Parents? or is it the possessions and talents i have acquired?

"What defines Me?"

Those three words running through my head all day; Not consciously of course but back there in that Mass of grey matter. I started To Cross out the possibilities and reached a final and Satisfying answer.

Myself, My Friends and My Spirituality

I was once told " Choose What you Value the most and let it define you."

I let me define myself by Being and independent thinker; not letting others change my process of thinking. Doing what i want; Free will was given by god for a reason. And Being My own person; I Am me, I'm not you or Someone else, I am an individual, I am special.

I let My friends define me by Being there for them; Helping them helps me. And Trusting them; I Trust them and they trust me, this definitely leads to good memories and good times.

Everything in my life Is overall well balanced. One thing i wish i was more in control is my spirituality. The time i devote to god is Zero, Zip, Nada. I'm not proud of it and i wish i had more control over that region of my life.

You may think I'm a control freak, and I most probably am. But isn't control good?......

Joddy.

Song of the week: Xavia-the submarines (It has Really helped me type out my Thoughts)