Sober Reunion

I hate it when I have no Dokha. I'm craving it. But I guess this Is a good opportunity to give it up. Not sure its something I want to do.

Any who, just had some family friends reach our place from Oman. I ha vent seen them in over 2 years. Alot has happened in these two years and I definitely wasn't looking forward to this reunion. I 'was' close with one of them. He was like my older brother when I was growing up; I looked up to him. He was what i wanted to be. He looks Amish now (not what i wanted to look like but whatever). But the real question is, Do I want to be like him now or was that because i needed someone other than a father to look up too?

This reunion has been tough on me. I had a good half an hour thinking session while having a shower this morning. I thought about what i would say and how I would behave. Totally fucked that up. I opened by saying he looked like a Jew. Fml. One thing i hate apart from lying is awkward moments.

I do not hang onto past relationships. If your out of my life don't bother coming back, Just GTFO. Life is too short to hold on meaningless relationships that will be rekindled by a brief meeting that is a forced formality. Its just a waste of time.

Its been a bit emotional this morning but I've held it together; But for what? So that we can remain friends who visit each other every few years? Please. I have better things to do.

Got an English exam tomorrow. Cant wait to see how that goes. Oh boy.

Joddy

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